The Black Hole

Hmmm..... yes.
Goddess blessI
I think that I must get undressed

To find the place
That is inside
That is gaping open wide
A place that doesn't know itself
A place that's scared like a little elf
It is a dark black hole, oh yes!
It is a hurting wounded mess

All energy is lost in there
All Consciousness is gone beware!
When I even go near this pain
I lose myself again and again
So now I go willingly towards it 
To risk being completely devoured by it

But now... that doesn't sound so bad
I think that could make me really glad!
I believe my false self will taste yummy
To the black holes great big tummy

And maybe after, I will feel
Relief to find that I am real
A new layer of myself I'll see
A greater capacity to be me
Free to be my true self I am
The whole of me present
Soft like a lamb

But not just soft, strong I'll be too
And ready to do the things Im called to do
So I go in willingly, openly trusting
Knowing the walls of my old self are busting
There is a space now that I can hold tenderly
A nest that is perfect for my vulnerability

It's new to sit in this place of extreme 
Greater capacity than there's ever been
But there's a place in my heart that I hardly can meet
A place that is needy, but so very sweet

She sits in the shadows
For so long forgotten
She once was abandoned
Once judged as rotten
She once was a part of me I couldn't accept
I had to be strong, perfect, adept
There wasn't a place for a softy with feelings
She had to be buried and numbed by my dealings

t was a shame at the time, but now I see
She never left me, she never did flee
I can touch her again and make her my own
She'll be my princess and live in my home

She is emerging from the darkness of the hole
My sweet darling dear, I'm ready to be full
Reunion with you brings me back to myself
No longer a scared little, shy little elf

So thank you my sweet, but please work with me
For holding you near makes me feel unsteady
Yes I am quite new to this way of being 
And it brings on an rather exposed feeling

But I'm committed to this and I know that I'll grow
For this is my truth, the path I want to know
We'll walk it together, you by my side
No longer in shame that I need to hide

And now the acceptance of all of me is here
And I thank my beloved for being my Mirror

By Heidi Jo